Its just funny, she doesnt want me at all and she wants to stay friends with me. I don't want to move on, i just wanna be with her. I guess ill just stay single the rest of my life until i move on. Idk, for right now, i just wanna be with her..Even if i changed, would she still like me? What do i have to do, so that she will like me? Or just like me a lil tiny bit. I did lots of things for her, shes like the only one i talk to on aim. I am like so jealous, that guy shes going out with is like probably the most lucky guy ever. If i moved on it might be the biggest mistake in my life. Or it can be her biggest mistake from not liking me or anything. She told me she used to like me a little bit in 7th grade. That was probably i lie to make me feel better? Idk, i wished she still like me, will it be worth it if i just waste my life on this one girl? Idk, my heart is like pouding on me really fast and i can just feel it. Im not even touching it, i can just feel it. She has such a beautiful smile, and i can just picture her in my mind, just her smiling and her funny giggle.
     Did you notice, that all of these blogs were based on her? I should have never been too close to her in the first place, thats probably why im like a brother to her. Well not everyone can get what they want, and the only thing i want now, is her. Well ill probably wont get that.

wow.

     Well i just need to know if she likes me or not you know? In the past i have been asking her if she liked me or not, and she just keeps saying no. The only reason i want to know if she likes me more than a friend is because if she likes me then i would be able to ask her out, and she would say yes. I wouldnt want to ask her out, and not like me more than a friend..Do you know what i mean? Am i confusing you? Let me start over again..
 
     Well if she didnt like me, and i asked her out, i wouldnt want her to say yes and not like me. So if she likes me more than a friend i would be able to ask her out and she liking me. Hahah i think that's more better.
     Idk..i just really like her and its been 2 years now and i still like her. Single for 2 years?!? I know guys, thats crazy...Shes just the only girl i really like, and the only one i trust the most, and really want to be with. Shes a really pretty asian girl and i know her very well..I know so many things about her and i hope shes know alot about me, because ive told her many things i havent told anyone..Shes already taken, and when i just think of them two, i just get jealous sometimes you know? Like whats with the people she likes? Why dont she like me? Whats different between me and them. Probably alot, i would change anything for her. I totally will, sometimes i feel like if i just move on, she might like me and then i regret just moving on..
     I have already told you that she means alot to me. I wouldnt want anyone to hurt her, Theres just so many things about her that i like, probably everything i like about her. haha, shes weird, funny and smart..=/
     Idk, i just want to know if she likes me or when will she like me? Probably never? Is this called obsessed? Well no, not obsessed but idk, i wouldnt call it love, haha, i dont know what love means.. hmmm